Sometimes messages come across my twitter like synchronized swimmers.Today the theme seems to be "beginnings" . I will be 40 next week and I am looking forward to it and have decided that it will mark a new beginning in my life. I plan to begin to take better care of myself and begin to nurture my inner self as well . I am not sure exactly what direction this will lead and with new beginnings comes disorder and anxiety for many of us . We as humans ,like answers and knowing . We like to have an order and like to know where our paths may lead. We search for answers to who we are , what we want, is this the right path for us,is it worth the risk . We pry in search of our inner selves always looking for the answers to our personal quests .So today I am reminded of this by poet Rainer Marie Rilke...I beg you ... to be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tounge.Do not now seek the answers,which cannot be given to you because you would not be able to live them.And the point is,to live everything.Live the questions now.Perhaps you will then gradually,without noticing it,live along some distant day into the answer.
I know its a difficult thing to do. When someone close gave me this little poem I don't think I was ready to even understand it and I wasnt very comfortable with that as an answer but I practice sometimes being still and just sitting with not knowing . I let the uncomfortableness of living the questions just Be and trust that as I am living them that one day the answer will appear when I am ready to live it , after all living the questions is part of the journey ,is it not?
i like this reminder, very much...christine told me that yesterday. i guess the universe is trying to hand me a message.
ReplyDeletei hope your 40th bday is full of magic & fun! You have such a sweet, nurturing heart, Jackie.
glad I 'met' you through circumstance & twitter. :)
Great quote!
ReplyDeleteI loved turning 40. It was just old enough to be taken seriously and young enough to still make mistakes and be foolish now and then. It felt much more relaxed than 30.